by Sandra Allen Lovelace      @SandraALovelace      #WallflowerWomen

At times life feels like an stormy, windswept sea. Or maybe it’s simply emotions that climb to dizzying heights and drop to petrifying depths. Whatever the source, the dramatic shifts can drive a person wild.

My latest episode was the loss of a folder that held some sensitive documents. I didn’t discover it was missing until the night of the sixth day—long enough to fuel serious fear but too late to reach out for assistance. My stomach tightened and pulled at every cell in my body. You know the feeling.

After scouring my office and my car . . . three times each . . . a surprise move took place. My brain pointed out there was a choice to make. Let the wild thoughts stew until the file was found, thereby losing at least one night’s sleep. Or  lay the situation at God’s feet and wait for Him to bring resolution. A skill I wouldn’t include on my resumé.

The opportunity to exercise my trust muscles brought a pause, and the hope to avoid exhaustion settled the decision. My plan to relax and leave the dilemma up to God worked fairly well except for that hour or so in the middle of the night. Well, and my eyeballs staring at the bedside clock super early. Are you with me?

Five minutes after the hopefully helpful office opened, my fingers punched the number into my iPhone 6. Lisa listened kindly to my barely-restrained description of the dire emergency. She asked where I thought the papers might be and offered to check the location in another building.

Ten pacing minutes later Lisa called to say she had my life-or-death object in her hands. A deep breath filled my lungs and my brain relaxed. She said I could come by any time, but my skin remained itchy so I went right over. Niagara Falls doesn’t compare to the relief that flowed over me when my hands held my delicate paperwork. Hallelujah!

My question for the Lord on the ride back went like this. “You already had everything figured out for my good. Why do these fickle feelings toss me up and down like ocean waves in a hurricane?” His response wasn’t audible. It came through words embedded in my heart. Jesus Christ is [eternally, changeless, always] the same yesterday and today and forever.*

We’re human, imperfect and frail, and our frame serves as a loving and purposeful reminder of our inability to control or even manage what goes on around us. Christ’s perfect strength and stability are the solid rock and impenetrable fortress we need to live in this fallen world. And, as He demonstrated, He is ever-present with grace and power only a prayer away.

A grin slid across my lips and joy, real joy, made my heart sing with confidence as a second verse spilled out. And do not be worried, for the joy of the LORD is your strength and your stronghold.**

Are your emotions as fickle as mine?
How does the LORD reveal His joy  to you?

Looking for encouraging hints,


*Hebrews 13:8, AMP
**Nehemiah 8:10, AMP

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  1. Thank you for this truth. I so need it every day! The thing I have to do in times like this is to just look back over the years and remind myself how very faithful He has been in times of desperation! I know I Still have times of panic, but it does help. I feel His refining fire over me, and I really do need it. I feel He is testing me at times to see If I truly Do Trust Him, and draw me ever closer to His side. He wants us to depend on Him, so perhaps it is times I am depending on myself way to much?!
    So thank you for this reminder, I know as long as we live here on this earth, we so NEED Him!
    God bless you in your Ministry and I pray you have/ Had a Wonderful birthday and a Blessed year ahead! He is calling His children Home soon, we pray! May we all reach out to those who do not know Him!

    1. Yes, Gail. It’s encouraging to know the Lord works to help each of us improve our trust quotient … exactly as we need.
      Thank you for your prayers for the Ephesians 2:10 work the Father has laid out for me. May He bless you for them.

  2. Sandra, a story we all can relate to. I struggle sometimes with those I love most with the up and down emotions. Taking what God embedded in yoir heart to mine💙

    1. And your reply makes my heart sing. I take the words of 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 seriously. Knowing His comfort rests on you by the words He used to comfort me = Hallelujah. <3 Thank you.

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